As I write this, watching the circle of pointlessness spin on my work computer to remind me that it is too busy to allow me to work, I thought I would take a few minutes to say: hi, I’m back.
A few things have changed, however:
For a number of reasons, some known as well as some probably unknown, I have gotten fat again – really, really fat. This morning I was 257.8 – the highest I’ve been in a decade. If you’re going to fail – fail big – and that’s what I’ve done.
The weight gain has been phenomenal. It appears I have no set-point. For the past year and a half, I’ve averaged a 1.6 pound weight gain per week. It doesn’t ever seem to even plateau – like the energizer bunny, it just keeps going and going.
Clothes have become a bit of a problem – like they don’t fit anymore, but I stubbornly stuff myself into them regardless. I refuse to buy new ‘fat clothes’ because I refuse to cave to the obvious: I’ve gotten fat and my clothes are going to experience stress-failures soon. Buttons will pop and seams will be bursting soon if I don’t get new clothes or reverse the course of my weight fast.
I have also mostly abandoned low carb, which had worked for me so well in the past. At present that seems a mistake. When my doctor saw me recently he commented that this proves low carb doesn’t work because it is unsustainable – this despite my keeping the weight off for nearly a decade.
Needless to say I don’t follow my doctor’s diet advice.
I honestly think it had something to do with my appendectomy. Since that time in October of 2013, I’ve gained 50 pounds. My doctor said that it had nothing to do with my weight gain – but this guy also said that gaining weight after a 10-year weight loss maintained by low carb show it to be unsustainable.
It really doesn’t matter if it was my appendix that caused the weight gain or space aliens – what I need to do right now is STOP IT.
When I say it doesn’t get any worse than this I mean I am drawing a line in the sand. 257.8 is the highest weight I’ll be. I am going to lose the weight and will do so by looking back on how I did it the first time. I’ve got a lot of notes, at least 3 unfinished books, and this blog which contains about 500 posts (some of dubious quality) that document just what the heck I did to succeed.
So it’s back to low carb.
The circle of pointlessness has completed its turning – I’ll catch ya later.